Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Honesty, Loyalty, Trust

Why are honesty, loyalty, and trust so scarce these days?  You think you know someone one minute and the next you find out you were blind to who that person really was.  I come to find that the majority of people lie, cheat, and steal.  Why is that?  What’s the point when in the end karma will bite you in the ass.  The truth always comes out.  So let’s all be honest.  If you don’t want to be with someone then break up with them, don’t cheat.  Don’t take what isn’t yours because if it wasn’t yours in the first place then it wasn’t meant to be.  I know from experience that I would rather be hurt by the truth than a lie.  Why are people more fake than real?  Are they scared to be who they are?  Some people put on a persona, because they can’t accept themselves or they just want to fit in.  You shouldn’t be anything other than yourself because then it’s like you’re living a lie.  Just be real.  It will be the best decision you will ever make.  The people that matter to you will be the ones that accept you for all you are.  

It’s sad to think that as the years go by, people are forced to have to rely on only themselves to get through life.  That in turn also makes people selfish.  So what are we really doing here?  Maybe it’s time to be a little selfless.  Maybe then people will be more inclined to be honest and loyal.  If we care more about each other than maybe just maybe the people we encounter will be the ones that we can rely on sometimes.  Because who really wants to live a lonely life?

My thoughts are all over the place.  The point I am trying to make is just stop pretending.  Be who you really are.  Don’t live a lie.  Be honest.  Tell the truth.  Be loyal.  Be the right amount of selfish and the right amount of selfless.  When you find people you can really rely on, don’t let them go.  Keep them in your life.  Also let them know they can rely on you as well.  

I know many people but that doesn’t mean I can trust or rely on all of them.  We all have family, best friends, friends, acquaintances, etc…All different types of people we come across in our lifetime.  But only a select few are the ones we keep forever.  I know who I care about.  I know who I trust.  I know who is loyal.  I know who I would do anything for.  I know who would be there for me through anything as I would do the same for them.  So I could only hope that everyone has honest, loyal, and trustworthy people in their lives.  Because when you can share experiences with the people you care about, that will make your life a lot more interesting and fun.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

At what cost

At what cost do we keep holding onto something?
What do you do when your heart wants to hold on but your head says let go?
When is it safe to speak up and put it all on the line?
What are the right things to say and what are the wrong ones?
Follow your heart or your head?
Somebody please tell me....

Monday, September 30, 2013


I've come to notice that some people have this ideal image in their head of the person they want to be with.  And I am not talking about personality wise.  I am talking about in the looks department.  I never really understood that.  Yes I know there are certain types of looks you can be attracted to but that doesn't mean you are going to wind up with the exact image you have in your head.  I don't like to judge based on looks alone.  Personality is what is important and that's the truth.  Looks fade. Remember that.  Attractiveness only goes so far.  If you have a shitty personality you will never be emotionally stable with anyone.

When it comes to feelings I never base it on how attractive someone is.  In fact I can point out all the outside flaws I want but still have the same feelings about the person I did after all that.  If I had an ideal image of what I wanted in a person they would have to look exactly like Justin Timberlake cause he is it for me. Lol.  We all know that's not going to happen.  And I am excited to see who comes into my life that will make me feel like he is my JT even without looking like him.  My feelings are what keep me attracted not the image.  Personality is what keeps people around.

Friday, August 30, 2013

What is this?

I will give you thoughts.  But will there be answers?  Is there a way to avoid getting hurt completely in a less than weary situation.  Maybe to completely avoid the inevitable is not healthy.  That doesn't stop us from avoiding things.  There may be a head on collision in the works.  But where will it leave us?  I can't lose whatever this is but I also cant go on not knowing what this is. 

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Holy Grail

"And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you
I just can't crack your code
One day you're screaming you love me loud
the next day you're so cold
one day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care
you're so unfair
Sippin from your cup till it runnith over
Holy Grail..."
-Jay Z and JT

I do believe these lyrics in this song are about fame.  At the same time it reminds me also about love.  It's definitely my jam at the moment.  In fact a cover of it might be in order.  Ha ha.  Just gotta test my rap skills.  Should be fun :p 

I will never understand what's so complicated about love.  You love somebody and they love you back you should just be with them.  It's simple really.  People just choose to make it more complicated than it really is.  And that sucks for the people who want it to not be as complicated. 

On top of that people are obsessed with sex, drugs, and rock and roll.  It's like hey let's see how many people we could sleep with while we're wasted and out of our minds.  It also seems no one is faithful anymore.  All my hope in love is lost.  It's really sad. 

Thursday, July 11, 2013

The Mind

The mind is a terrible thing.  I have been doing a lot of reading on unconsciousness.  It seems as though our mind is more aware when we are unconscious than when we are conscious.  When our body is at rest the mind takes over.  You ever wonder what our minds are capable of?  We dream. We think. We function.  We live. We love. I don't know.  Some people think reality is the dream.  That we are all just figment of the imagination.  No one will ever know. Did you know that the brain and the mind are 2 different things? The brain is just a vessel.  It's a part of the body.  You can physically see it or touch it sometimes. Whereas the mind is not seen.  It's transparent.  You can't physically touch your mind.  The mind inhabits the brain.  But where does the mind go when the brain no longer shelters it?  Question everything.  Broaden your knowledge.  Expand the mind.  Know that there is more to what we see everyday.  Be open to the experience.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013


I found out in recent events that I can't trust people.  I confided in someone and they told others.  Now I wonder what other people know because this person talked too much.  No one will ever tell me the truth.  She twisted my words and they got used against me.  All the good times we had got shot to shit because of what?  It's never going to be the same anymore.  I have to watch what I say.  I have to watch what I do.  Don't lie to me!! Don't lie to anybody!  This cannot be fixed.  I don't know why I try to give people the benefit of the doubt when all they do is screw me.  I am tired of trusting people.  Now they have to prove to me they can be trusted before I even consider giving them my trust.  Whoever is a part of this betrayal should know that I can play the game too.  I can ruin a lot of things.  I can lie.  But guess what...I am not you.  I will never be you.  I will not stoop to that level.  It's not worth my time.  Instead I am going to move on and be a better person.  Be the bigger person.  Lies can only go so far until it blows up in someones face.  The truth always rears it's head.  Maybe you should think about that before you decide to screw good people over.  To those of you who were a part of whatever was said about me, it's called come straight to the source and I will tell you the TRUTH.  Also stop acting like you aren't talking shit either.  Cause we all know you are.  Where do you think I get my info from?  Look at the people around you.  They all talked.  They all confessed.  They all lied.  They all cheated.  I see it's so easy for you to throw away someone that actually gives a damn about her friends.  Yet you're going to keep around the people that would screw you over every chance they got.  How does that make any sense?  Well, it's your loss anyway.  Have fun being miserable cause I am going to move forward and be happy.

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