What is this?

I will give you thoughts.  But will there be answers?  Is there a way to avoid getting hurt completely in a less than weary situation.  Maybe to completely avoid the inevitable is not healthy.  That doesn't stop us from avoiding things.  There may be a head on collision in the works.  But where will it leave us?  I can't lose whatever this is but I also cant go on not knowing what this is. 

Holy Grail

"And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you
I just can't crack your code
One day you're screaming you love me loud
the next day you're so cold
one day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care
you're so unfair
Sippin from your cup till it runnith over
Holy Grail..."
-Jay Z and JT

I do believe these lyrics in this song are about fame.  At the same time it reminds me also about love.  It's definitely my jam at the moment.  In fact a cover of it might be in order.  Ha ha.  Just gotta test my rap skills.  Should be fun :p 

I will never understand what's so complicated about love.  You love somebody and they love you back you should just be with them.  It's simple really.  People just choose to make it more complicated than it really is.  And that sucks for the people who want it to not be as complicated. 

On top of that people are obsessed with sex, drugs, and rock and roll.  It's like hey let's see how many people we could sleep with while we're wasted and out of our minds.  It also seems no one is faithful anymore.  All my hope in love is lost.  It's really sad. 

The Mind

The mind is a terrible thing.  I have been doing a lot of reading on unconsciousness.  It seems as though our mind is more aware when we are unconscious than when we are conscious.  When our body is at rest the mind takes over.  You ever wonder what our minds are capable of?  We dream. We think. We function.  We live. We love. I don't know.  Some people think reality is the dream.  That we are all just figment of the imagination.  No one will ever know. Did you know that the brain and the mind are 2 different things? The brain is just a vessel.  It's a part of the body.  You can physically see it or touch it sometimes. Whereas the mind is not seen.  It's transparent.  You can't physically touch your mind.  The mind inhabits the brain.  But where does the mind go when the brain no longer shelters it?  Question everything.  Broaden your knowledge.  Expand the mind.  Know that there is more to what we see everyday.  Be open to the experience.

Anonymous

I found out in recent events that I can't trust people.  I confided in someone and they told others.  Now I wonder what other people know because this person talked too much.  No one will ever tell me the truth.  She twisted my words and they got used against me.  All the good times we had got shot to shit because of what?  It's never going to be the same anymore.  I have to watch what I say.  I have to watch what I do.  Don't lie to me!! Don't lie to anybody!  This cannot be fixed.  I don't know why I try to give people the benefit of the doubt when all they do is screw me.  I am tired of trusting people.  Now they have to prove to me they can be trusted before I even consider giving them my trust.  Whoever is a part of this betrayal should know that I can play the game too.  I can ruin a lot of things.  I can lie.  But guess what...I am not you.  I will never be you.  I will not stoop to that level.  It's not worth my time.  Instead I am going to move on and be a better person.  Be the bigger person.  Lies can only go so far until it blows up in someones face.  The truth always rears it's head.  Maybe you should think about that before you decide to screw good people over.  To those of you who were a part of whatever was said about me, it's called come straight to the source and I will tell you the TRUTH.  Also stop acting like you aren't talking shit either.  Cause we all know you are.  Where do you think I get my info from?  Look at the people around you.  They all talked.  They all confessed.  They all lied.  They all cheated.  I see it's so easy for you to throw away someone that actually gives a damn about her friends.  Yet you're going to keep around the people that would screw you over every chance they got.  How does that make any sense?  Well, it's your loss anyway.  Have fun being miserable cause I am going to move forward and be happy.


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Knowledge

Do we ever really know what we are doing?  Do we ever really make the right decisions?  How is knowledge gained if we can't learn from certain mistakes that we make?  The smartest people don't even have all the answers.  I guess in retrospect we shouldn't really have all the answers anyway.  If we did, there would be no surprises in life.  Everything would be completely predictable.  Who wants that?  Most people don't want to know what's going to happen next.  That's probably the best way to be.

New Beginning

After every end there is a new beginning.  Time to push forward and be happy.  It's scary but it's suppose to be.  Change is a good thing.  I think it's about time I make it the greatest decision of my life at this point.  No more negativity.  No more losing focus on what really matters.  No more letting other people bring you down.  I want to believe that what's meant to be will be.  So here's hoping.  After today I am going to take a deep breath and let everything go.  Start fresh.  Stop saying I am going to do this or that but actually do it.  I have to stop compromising myself for situations I have no control over.  Focus on living life and being happy with myself.  If I don't do that I will never be happy.  I realize that now.  Hopefully I could make moves to change that.  Don't hold back.  Be strong. 

Just a little advice...

Every day is a new day.  So why not do something new everyday.  Do something you have always wanted to but never got a chance to.  Make a list and follow through.  You will be happy you took the time.

If you are passionate about something or want to stand up for what you believe in, do it.  Take charge and make a positive difference in the world around you.  Open people's eyes and minds to different possibilities.  In turn you make also open up your mind even more.

Don't sweat the small stuff.  It's not worth stressing over.  There are bigger things in life to worry about.  So let go of the excess baggage.  Trust me you will feel a lot better and lighter when you shed it off your shoulders.