Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Holy Grail

"And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you
I just can't crack your code
One day you're screaming you love me loud
the next day you're so cold
one day you're here, one day you're there, one day you care
you're so unfair
Sippin from your cup till it runnith over
Holy Grail..."
-Jay Z and JT

I do believe these lyrics in this song are about fame.  At the same time it reminds me also about love.  It's definitely my jam at the moment.  In fact a cover of it might be in order.  Ha ha.  Just gotta test my rap skills.  Should be fun :p 

I will never understand what's so complicated about love.  You love somebody and they love you back you should just be with them.  It's simple really.  People just choose to make it more complicated than it really is.  And that sucks for the people who want it to not be as complicated. 

On top of that people are obsessed with sex, drugs, and rock and roll.  It's like hey let's see how many people we could sleep with while we're wasted and out of our minds.  It also seems no one is faithful anymore.  All my hope in love is lost.  It's really sad. 

Thursday, July 11, 2013

The Mind

The mind is a terrible thing.  I have been doing a lot of reading on unconsciousness.  It seems as though our mind is more aware when we are unconscious than when we are conscious.  When our body is at rest the mind takes over.  You ever wonder what our minds are capable of?  We dream. We think. We function.  We live. We love. I don't know.  Some people think reality is the dream.  That we are all just figment of the imagination.  No one will ever know. Did you know that the brain and the mind are 2 different things? The brain is just a vessel.  It's a part of the body.  You can physically see it or touch it sometimes. Whereas the mind is not seen.  It's transparent.  You can't physically touch your mind.  The mind inhabits the brain.  But where does the mind go when the brain no longer shelters it?  Question everything.  Broaden your knowledge.  Expand the mind.  Know that there is more to what we see everyday.  Be open to the experience.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013


I found out in recent events that I can't trust people.  I confided in someone and they told others.  Now I wonder what other people know because this person talked too much.  No one will ever tell me the truth.  She twisted my words and they got used against me.  All the good times we had got shot to shit because of what?  It's never going to be the same anymore.  I have to watch what I say.  I have to watch what I do.  Don't lie to me!! Don't lie to anybody!  This cannot be fixed.  I don't know why I try to give people the benefit of the doubt when all they do is screw me.  I am tired of trusting people.  Now they have to prove to me they can be trusted before I even consider giving them my trust.  Whoever is a part of this betrayal should know that I can play the game too.  I can ruin a lot of things.  I can lie.  But guess what...I am not you.  I will never be you.  I will not stoop to that level.  It's not worth my time.  Instead I am going to move on and be a better person.  Be the bigger person.  Lies can only go so far until it blows up in someones face.  The truth always rears it's head.  Maybe you should think about that before you decide to screw good people over.  To those of you who were a part of whatever was said about me, it's called come straight to the source and I will tell you the TRUTH.  Also stop acting like you aren't talking shit either.  Cause we all know you are.  Where do you think I get my info from?  Look at the people around you.  They all talked.  They all confessed.  They all lied.  They all cheated.  I see it's so easy for you to throw away someone that actually gives a damn about her friends.  Yet you're going to keep around the people that would screw you over every chance they got.  How does that make any sense?  Well, it's your loss anyway.  Have fun being miserable cause I am going to move forward and be happy.

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